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ok friday night and i am bored as hell =( allow me to rephrase what i said last time... i don't mean that movie is the only thing, but that we usually end up just watching movie cuz ppl r too lazy to do anything else... like tonight, i'll prob. end up goin to someone's place to watch a movie...
random facts of the week... psychology studies shows that the human are attracted to people who's appearence are close to what they considered the "average". If that sounds counter intuitive, think about a person where all the features are "just right", then that's your idea of a average opposite sex, and damn she's hot, hehe. #2, the difference between gender and sex: sex refers to "the difference between male and female", and gender refers to the difference in trait... so in other words, if someone undergo a sex change, its sex and gender will be different. #3, today is Pi day (3.14), and as far as i know, cmu students are the only ppl on the face of this planet that knows this fact. There's even a celebration where the physics majors are allowed to throw pies at their professors (i wanted to go and throw pie at my phys2 prof, but...) #4 stroke patients are, in most cases, physically capable of full recovery by using other parts of the brain to take over the functions of the damaged part(s). however, usually several months has past by the time the brain reroute all the functionalities that the patient has the mental blockade believing that they can't do it...#5, it's gonna be 64 degree tomorrow, and i WILL play tennis =)
i'm afraid of getting old... seriously...
i watched About Schmidt over the break... depressing movie about getting old and retiring with nothing to do all day and no passion ... (it's also pretty depressing how movie seems to be one of the only entertainment in pittsburgh...) But even before watching the movie i've always been scared of getting old... my grandfather had stroke when i was 15... i felt bad, watching him trying to get over the fact that he can no longer dressed himself or take shower/bath by himself (can't even control simple bodily functions); at the same time i wonder if i would have enough will to live if I was under the situation... i understood it, could almost feel how he must have felt... knowing that you are only a burden to everybody, that you can only sit in front of the TV all day unless someone has the time to walk you around the block, that you can barely keep your balance even with a cane. Most importantly, that even tho you know everyone still care for you and will spent any amount of money necessary to take care of you, they all have the own life and own future to worry about, and you have lived your time, and all that's ahead of you is ... waiting... waiting for ppl to feed you, waiting for kids to get back, waiting to die...
I am pretty sure that as long as i am healthy, i'll be happy enough that life is worth living, but most likely i'll eventually be unable to play tennis (Noooooo~~ =P ), unable to see clearly, unable to do more and more things, or catch horrible diseases... but that's ok... the worse part is that undoubtedly, ppl will be trying to keep me alive... that's bad, i shudder at the thought of needing therapy everyday or have 10 needles stuck in me... so i think i'll just kill myself if i get a stroke ;) ... like jump off the top of the hospital... hmmm i wonder if i can still climb ladders after i have a stroke...
so i realize that i have stopped updating my blog regularly... but i don't know why that is...
but there's really not much to write about... life is pretty boring here... just lookin' forward to the cruise, lookin' for a job, and generally procrastinating... oh m&m had been draggin' me to the gym this week... trying to get in shape in 3 weeks ^^;; i played tennis yesterday with w (yay, even tho i sucked), AND worked out with m... my right arm is about to fall off rite now... =P watched the jet li movie... craddle 2 the grave... it was ok... better than his other hollywood movies, but is nothin' compared to Hero ;)
oh ya i've been teachin' mw the board game go... hopefully i can teach him well enough so that we can play on the cruise =) such a fun game... how come only t knows how to play (among our group)?
not goin anywhere 4 midsemester... stayin' at home and look for a job... maybe i should have booked a ticket to go home, but then i already spent too much for spring break... so guess not...
